Appreciation and gratitude for Balance

My practicing of the Universal Laws of Energy manifestation has been a learning process. Often the learning is the awareness that the laws are already operating and that I have just been increasingly aware of them. The "experts", coaches, facilitators, teachers, entrepreneurs and huckster are not only available, but quite overwhelmingly in your face at seemingly every turn. So often I question the need for teachers and often the result has been that I flounder and struggle with learning from my self education.

I am truly believe that we are in control of our own destiny's. Many things are presented to us in our daily life. The good, the bad , and the questionable. So there are skills that need to be developed. "Go with the flow" is not just a catchy phrase. Because as we are directly manifesting that flow, and just as a canoe or raft on the river, you can choose to allow the river to toss you about in the rapids or quietly float you along and use your oars to direct. I want to both flow and to get into the adrenalin rush of the rapids, best savored when in control and direction.

Fears that are present, like on the river ride, are manageable when you use your skills and or face the risks and push beyond the familiar territories of your self awareness. Escape from the norm or familiar is a good avenue to follow. Escape from the all too familiar reality you have created for yourself and search for a better view of the situation. Think...

I hope the push well beyond the limitations I have accepted for way too long.

I will wear a life vest but maybe I need to just in and head downstream. I know how to swim so I will ride some bigger rivers. I choose to push my limits and see what lies down stream. Knowing that I have not taken on the challenge of jumping into a rapid while alone. I have learned from those that have traveled this road before.I want to join others that can both assist and can share in the joy of the adventure. In the larger view of life and lives shared I find balance in both learning and sharing.

I am so grateful for this adventure.

Parking myself on a rainy afternoon in Portland

Living within the Laws

Caught up in the laws. Who me? Never I say! I go my own way, always have always will. I am an independent thinking person, leading my self in my own way. but hey, look where that has gotten me. 58 years further down the road and still searching for the answers to what do I do with this life? Does it take 58 years to admit to yourself that you have made choices all along the way already. Choices that have set you life in motion on a daily basis to arrive at this place that is all so familliar and yet not quite comfortable. I have become after this life of resistance and rebellion, just that rebellious and unhappy with the status quo. Not just with "the world" but with my own world.I have been ignorant of the laws. What laws? The laws of the universe. The natural laws that govern everything and everyone whether you consciously participate or not.Getting up on the "wrong side of the bed" can set into motion a wrong kind of day, in which you set the mood for the entire day. Is it ment to be that this will just be a "bad" day. The "law" actually says, it's up to me. It's not in the air, not someone else getting in my way, not going to somehow automaticaly be a bad day. By the laws of the universe "I" am creating that day just the way I order it to be. As if I, following the laws, have no choice but make it what it is.And that is exactly what I have chosen to do, to make it a miserable day. I, me and my subconscious, my spirit, my true self will it to be by participating in the belief that this is what the day is making of itself. When the reality is that I am believeing that this is the way it is. No! I have believed in it. I am living it as if that is the only way, and so I have manifested my own fate for this day. "I" have created it all. "I" have believed that this is way it is going to be and it is so.My participation in a crappy day has created a crappy day because that is the choice I made.There is another way. There are laws that give me the freedom to create a different reality . To follow a different direction. To stop and step out of bed from a new angle. It may be ever so slight a change, but even a 1 degree change of direction on the 360 degree circle is infinitely different when followed to its conclusion.I have taken a new direction and will explore the possibilities and new conclusions, because the ruts in the old path are too deep to see any goals or outcomes that I can live with. It is not jsut me on the path any more. I am a part of a much bigger picture and outcome. I have a family, friends , community and world to be a part of.In a much grander fashion then the rebellious and resistant fellow I once knew, I am reborn as a seeker, a student and facilitator of huge potentials and worlds of possibilities. I am living the laws with new respect and acceptance. I can live with the knowledge that we all are participants whether we are consciously aware or not and I choose consciousness. I want to not only see the path before me but to activily create it. It is mine and I own it. This life is mine and not one moment more to waste.I LOVE MINE!

Who the Heck is this guy?

Well it all start just after the war... you know the war to end all wars. As with most of us "Baby Boomers" we were brought up to think that we we born into a world of privilege. Things were pretty good in the fifties. Two parent homes in suburbia. (mine is 20 minutes south of San Francisco) Pacifica is small town USA then. A series of small valleys along the California coast connected by Highway 1, which runs from Canada to Mexico.
I am the oldest of three children born to Howard and Ellen Feight, just kids themselves in their early 20's. They bought a house in this new community for just under $12,000. Can you believe that homes were really that cheap once. Well maybe not so cheap then, but it was one of those "Little Boxes" of the then popular song portrayed. But iit provided us with a near "Ozzie & Harriet" existance. We kids (two sisters and I) were able to be off in the morning to play with our friends, not to be seen again until lunch or even dinner time. Which gave Mom time for shopping , cleaning, and hanging out with the neighbors and drinking lots of coffee and gossip.
We kids were free to explore the valleys treasures. The hills, creeks, forests and the beach.